pass the pickle

31st January '14

Sometimes it’s tough to be yourself
And live your life like you used too..

I can’t hear the world anymore
The seas are calling out to me
In the day
The whales scream
The dolphins spin in the air
In the night
I see the turtles crawling up to me..

I can’t see the people around me anymore
They’re all but a haze
The colours are drugging me
Playing with my consciousness
Tugging me into dreams
I spend the day trying to keep my eyes open..

I feel too much..
The cold pierces in
The warmth hisses
I taste too much..
The pickle I took a fortnight ago
The water I’ll sip in a while
I sense the bewilderment trying to drown me..

You think it’s a phase, just a day
Tomorrow would be different

But will it?

Things Fall Apart

22nd January '14

This book is a masterpiece... atleast for me. Can't wait to start on the #2 of the trilogy.

Brings alive old Nigeria and its rich culture just before its colonization. And when the conflict comes about, it's not only a conflict between two religions, but between a lot of aspects, incomparable aspects - way of existence, richness in history, identity, roots, beliefs & so much more....

“There is no story that is not true, [...] The world has no end, and what is good among one people is an abomination with others.”

The patriarch Okonkwo's dilemmas, decisions and actions give a feel of  insecurity, strength, pride, failure, need for approval and recognition and sketches a portrait of a man who believes what is taught to him and puts his might into bettering his situation, not without his weak moments though.

“Perhaps down in his heart Okonkwo was not a cruel man. But his whole life was dominated by fear, the fear of failure and of weakness.It was deeper and more intimate that the fear of evil and capricious gods and of magic, the fear of the forest, and of the forces of nature, malevolent, red in tooth and claw. Okonkwo’s fear was greater than these. It was not external but lay deep within himself.”

What was really interesting and heart-warming are the snippets of old Igbo sayings, stories and songs.

“Mosquito [...] had asked Ear to marry him, whereupon Ear fell on the floor in uncontrollable laughter. "How much longer do you think you will live?" she asked. "You are already a skeleton." Mosquito went away humiliated, and any time he passed her way he told Ear that he was still alive.”

Ashoka: The Search for India's Lost Emperor

8th January '14

"What constitutes Dhamma? .......little evil, much good, kindness, generosity, truthfulness and purity.....much self examination, much respect, much fear (of evil), and much enthusiasm."
- Excerpt: Translation of Rock Edict 1, Beloved of the Gods, Piyadassi, 3rd century BC

I loved this book, especially cause of it's approach. It doesn't just narrate the story of Ashoka and cite examples of the edicts and other things excavated,but it takes us on a journey of how this Great, Great emperor creeps back into our consciousness after centuries and centuries of neglect.

I guess we'll always be grateful to the British for the role they played in his discovery. And can hope, that the Indian history text books and conscious mind will give Piodesses (as the Greeks called him)the respect due to him.