All I wanted was some unaccounted time

8^th March 2015

All I wanted was some unaccounted time…

Some air to play with my curls

Some conversation to rekindle my heart

Something timeless

Something not mundane

All I wanted was some unaccounted time…

To look beyond the obvious

To shake away the doubts

To feel it in my bones again

To reconnect like that once again

All I wanted was some unaccounted time…

But it was not to be

But it was too impractical

But the but of all buts…

But the elements did not conspire

All I wanted was some unaccounted time…

It was not only for me

It was for us

It was… It was… It was…

It was for us to be

All I wanted was some unaccounted time…

Was it too much?

Was it difficult?

Was it missed?

Was it wanted, at all?

All I wanted was some unaccounted time…

Donno when I wrote this. 2013 or maybe 2014. 

Tossed in space,
I travel
  orbiting around
      god knows what?
A sun,
  a planet,
    a satellite,
        or an asteroid?

Inconsequential,
      maybe a li'l consequential.

Who knows
    what's the conspiracy
         or what do the elements intend?
Is there a way,
    a technique to know
      exactly where you're going?

Tell me.

CONSPIRER

8th May 2006

Sometimes from the deepest fears...
...Rises the utmost strength one has...
Sometimes from the darkest corners..
...Comes alive the most brightest fantasies...
Sometimes when these sometimes happen..
...One ceases and stops...and wonders...

What is it, which reigns supreme??
Who is it tht decides?
..............When, where, what, who, whom, how?

Someone must be there..
Someone who knows it all..
Someone whom we don't know...
..But a someone who knows us just too well.

Someone who knows the answers to the unanswered questions..
Someone who'll tell us exactly which belief is true...
Someone planning the whole conspiracy..
Someone who knows why the unreasonable things happen...

Go up...go down...go right...go left...
Is he everywhere??
Can he follow me to almost everywhere??
If he's there for everyone.. then why is he wasting time on me??
"Why?", I ask him... and the omnipresent smiles...
"Ok...so tell me the reasons for me atleast"...
...And knowing the answers he still doesn't say...
"Ok say something...something for keeps sake.."
..And through the silence I hear...
"LIVE IT....knowing too much would spoil the fun..."