Monday, 29th October '07

I'm under attack.
I'm alone, and they are so so many.
guess who?
loads of them..
early monday morning at work. saw 4-5 loitering about my desk. fished them out on a piece of paper. didn't kill them, but deposited them safely in the steel bin beside my table. no sooner did I turn. what do I see? another battalion. then another. then another. Never ending forces. what to do?
and where have they camped?? inside my key board. one quietly creeps about my li'l finger now. thinks I'm blind. uhhhhuh. I'll kill you.
naah. there you go. safe into the bin.

Red Red Red

20th October '07

I taste words today. And they go dry in my mouth.

Red… Red floats in front of my eyes. Like little air bubbles. They make me smile. Tickle me. More red. More and more red. I’m too tickled. Remembering too much. Too many memory red bubbles. They all clash together and burst. Now there’s red. Blood dark red all around. Dark red. Which is boiling. This red makes me restless. Red world all around. Red. Red. Red. Stop. Just let me be.

Cofy says

20th August '07

I’m in a shuttle. Closed. Traveling through time space. With what speed?
I donno. Maybe not at a speed, which satisfies. Or maybe not reaching someplace fast enough. Someplace could be wherever. At whatever dimension. But I need to reach it. This travel seems awfully long. Too too long. So long that it makes me feel lost. Or is it just sickness? Homesickness. Seasickness. Lovesickness. I’m a bitch. One li’l puppy. Yelp Yelp. Bow Wow.
:( Take me home…

20th October '07

The pujor city, Calcutta
Is lit with the beauty and splendour
Of the like of earthen lamps in a holy lake flickering
..Seems like twinkling stars on a visit to Earth.


20th October '07

Roaming barefoot in hot sandy deserts,
My feet got red..
Then blackish blue..
They got burned.
But did I realize?

Flying the dark blue glimmering sky,
My hands got tired..
Then stopped flapping..
They got paralyzed.
But did I stop floating?

Thinking huddled up deep inside of me,
My mind got blank..
Then stopped dreaming..
It got weird.
But did I stop living?


2nd October '07

It was Gandhiji's B'day today.
He isn't here anymore,
but he's done so much for this country.
It is indeed an occassion to celebrate..
celebrate his birth as an INDIAN.
I hope we all atleast give him as much as a thought today...
before we enjoy a national holiday.
What Say?

29th September '07

Where are you God?
Tell me, will you?
Is it the rituals I'm lacking?
Or is it some mistake I've made?
Tell me?
Is this relationship also, not unconditional?
Why have you left me so alone?
Why are you not anywhere around?
Why don't you speak to me?
For Gods' sake!

I need to breathe
but I can't find fresh air anywhere..
I need to live, to walk on forward
but, wherever I step the earth slips away from underneath.
I'm doing everything, I can..
The doing bit is ok..
But why can't I do my mind?

There's a wallow inside.
A sink pit ..which pulls me inside.
It's swallowing me,
gobbling me alive.
help! help! help!
No one heard my cries.

Some days back,
it seems ages now.
I felt I was a bird.
To fly high in the skies.
I felt my wings..
and was dying to feel the air.
But now,
the wings are there, the sky is there..
and I'm tied down by invisible ropes.
Who tied me?
I don't know?
Maybe I did it myself.
And then forgot the knots
and the way to untie them.

b4 the clock struck 12

A li'l letter I write to you..
just some words.
a sincere attempt
to tell you just a small thing.
that I'm not ok.
you see
I miss you
a lot
and nostalgia
makes me sick.
deep inside..
so the real message is
just come back
and if you really really can't
then just be back for one second..
just a second you can spare..
you better spare
and take me
with you.
and ever.
and ever.