eemoushunal atyaaachaar

28th Jan '09

Sometimes, for no reason at all things seem so weird. I know weird is a random word, but as I’ve already establishes many times before, it’s the perfect abstract expression for me.

 

Maybe I’m one of those depressive writers, coz 75% of the time I write, depressive-melancholy shit comes out, irrespective of my mood. I’ll not work on it; I’d just leave some things to just turn out the way they want to churn out.

 

Deep Dive

22nd Jan '09

Lemme delve within myself…

Lemme dive down, deep within…

 

And all I clasp in my palm is that what holds me within..

And all I lock in my heart is that what locks me in tangles

 

And as I rise to the surface again

The images, the glittering blue, the reflections in the water confuse me..

I’m you and you are me and then it’s we

Intertwined we’re rising in spirals

 

To the surface we surface,

Soaked in depth

 

MIndless Bents

20th Jan '09

It's not the pen

It's the thought

It's not the booty

It's the dignity 

My Darling

How we keep moving through the minutes, the days, the weeks

And suddenly it's been a year..

All that affected you, caught your thoughts, plagued your mind

Came, said hello, had a cup of tea and went away..

And I'd say, the rendezvous wasn't that bad..

If was bad, wtf it passed.

If didn't, would.

again. wtf.

It's all that we'll have in the end.

You would have me.

I'd have you.

And most importantly, we'll have each of ourselves to ourself.

What would matter to me..

is that my heart is clean, without pain or regret or guilt...

is that my mind is without debate, coz I did not bend...

is that my soul is my soul, not sold.

Reality continues to ruin my life

13^th January ’09          

 

Reality continues to ruin my life

-  Calvin & Hobbes

 

Yeah. Bring it on Reality. I’ll see what you have. Every spot, I do not like, I’ll paint over with my dreams, brand new colours and design.Do you realize, you are but a perception. And the moment I change perception, I change you. I change the reality.

HaHaHaHaHaHaHa…..evil squeals of laughter like delight

phasing in. phasing out.

7^th January ‘09

 

Yes it’s a new year!

But somehow the newness didn’t quite like dawn on me. Probably cause the chronological partitioning abhors me. However, dates haven’t quite in particular managed to stop making their marks on me.

 

No resolution. No definite resolution.

Just that I’ll try and invest more time in myself. Basically balance the four aspects of life, namely: Work, Community, Family and Self. I guess I’ll have to learn how to say NO, which is kinda li’l difficult for me.

 

Indecisiveness to Decisiveness

Decision-making is stressful for me, inherently. Or maybe was. Coz ’08 was the year in which I made a lot of decisions, for myself. Small- li’l ones, major-life changing ones. Learned to flow…..

 

The year gone by: ’08. Was one of change. Perpetual change reflected in all aspects. But the most notable change is within my mind. Though still, I fully and completely don’t know what I want, or where I am. But I’m getting there. And to that place the travel this year was notable. So thank you ’08, for making me more me, and helping me know me.

 

’09 you have quite a year to succeed!