13th November '2017
I've not been too well.
I've not been too well.
In fact I've been feeling very low.
I thought I could handle it.
But not all the time.
It's been in bands.
I've been crying.
They tell you it's normal. All moms cry. So I think it must be normal.
I thought I cried a bit too much. But then I had twins!
I thought I could handle it.
It seems I haven't been able to. Atleast not effectively.
It has a name.
Shhh....It's a taboo. No one can know.
Know how many mothers suffer some form of Postpartum Depression?
1 of 5 mothers. And it's 4 out of 5 mothers of multiples (includes mother of twins, that's me).
Know how many people trolled me for feeling low?
9 out of 10 (or more)
But, at this point in time I don't a give a shit!
The truth is I feel like shit. But at this point in time I own every bit of shit that I am.
It's me. And mine.
OKAY. That was intense.
Focus. Focus. Focus. Again.
What's different today is that I'm ready to launch an expedition to get back to myself. I don't know whether I'll succeed or not. I'll just put every bit of me into this.
GAME PLAN
For the Mind:
1. Magic 28 day experiment
2. Weekly appointments to figure out my triggers and understand myself better
3. Blog. Write. Write. Blog.
4. Dabble: books, cinema, music
For the Body:
1. Atleast one physical activity per day
2. Nutrition (this is gonna be a tough nut, but I'm gonna crack it)
For the Soul:
1. Meditate atleast 10 minutes everyday
2. Communicate (conversation, writing) with my soul friends
3. Conversations with my soul - poetry, art, dance
And the last but not the least cross-category thingie:
Hold my partner and three kids, extraordinarily close. In other words "squeeze them".
But, at this point in time I don't a give a shit!
The truth is I feel like shit. But at this point in time I own every bit of shit that I am.
It's me. And mine.
OKAY. That was intense.
Focus. Focus. Focus. Again.
What's different today is that I'm ready to launch an expedition to get back to myself. I don't know whether I'll succeed or not. I'll just put every bit of me into this.
GAME PLAN
For the Mind:
1. Magic 28 day experiment
2. Weekly appointments to figure out my triggers and understand myself better
3. Blog. Write. Write. Blog.
4. Dabble: books, cinema, music
For the Body:
1. Atleast one physical activity per day
2. Nutrition (this is gonna be a tough nut, but I'm gonna crack it)
For the Soul:
1. Meditate atleast 10 minutes everyday
2. Communicate (conversation, writing) with my soul friends
3. Conversations with my soul - poetry, art, dance
And the last but not the least cross-category thingie:
Hold my partner and three kids, extraordinarily close. In other words "squeeze them".
1 comment:
This piece so beautifully echoes what so many moms ( new and not so new) would be
going through.. the struggle is real
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