15th Feb '07

b4 dawn...

people and music boom in my head
and I'm restless...
seem as if I'm moving towards something, maybe someone...
but i can't find it anywhere....my destination..
a helpless feeling..
can't reach it...
wait is too long...
too difficult...
i have no strength...
nothing..
despair....is all i feel..
giddy with this restlessness....
i oscillate
tremble....

a song plays in the back ground...
o humdum suniyo re
o jaaniya suniyo re
but who hears me??
do u?
u know who u are??
should i disturb u now??
or should i let u sleep...hmm??

feel like going for a walk...
it's 2: 30 am...
alone..
challenging the cold winds...
it's chilly here alright..
and then what if i feel like and give in to the urge to fall on the dew drenched grass...???
will it be alright??...if i clench the cold in my fists...and embrace it and sleep...
will my acceptance of the cold and total surrender make the it warm to me??
or am i underestimating the cruelty of the cold.

music...music....
music...can pull any cord of your senses....even the ones u bury deep deep inside..

"chandni raatein
chandni raatein
sab jag soye
hum jaage
taaron se karein baatein....
chandni raatein"

and it goes on and on....with its melody haunting me...and driving me crazier by the second......

MY VERSION
moonlit nights
the beautiful moonlit nights
why do people sleep through the nights?
these beautiful moonlit night

let's talk to the stars tonight
try and collect them in your palms
if not, at least reach out to them, courtesy's sake...
let's stare at them in wonder like the kids

remember how we used to say with actions
"twinkle twinkle little star
how i wonder what u r?
up above the world so high
like a diamond in the sky"

but now....
not the stars...
not the moon...
not the nature and it's awe...
but the spirit is what gives the spirit a kick....
most believe...

But, not me...
...tipsy yes..
.......but the greatest kick u can get is out of being in luvv...
like a friend of mine used to say..
"I'm high..high on luvv"
but isn't the earlier bit about nature, moon and stars...all connected?