Awakened

3rd April '07 (was it dawn?)

It's so goddamn difficult
to let people understand the system,
It's really pissing when
the winds, the elements are all troubled by a single intention.
It's really very not so considerate and pleasing
when what you do and your intentions are not reciprocated.
Much worse, when misinterpreted.
It's really stupid at times to go out of your way
for some, who'd never do the same for you.
It's a selfish world,
that's all that it is in the end.
To live selflessly here,
is a big mistake.
Compassion's to be curbed,
Love is to be hidden,
Care, never to let get through.
Coz' what happens is,
no-one really cares
and all they do is put-up acts.
Coz' what really is,
that it's the masks all around,
and all emotions forged to use you,
once and again.
The smiles, the jokes,
not all is clean.
Faces, gestures and words,
not to be taken on the face,
never, ever, never, ever.
In my li'l world i'd stay.
Outer self to the outer world.
A sheath I'd lock so tightly over,
impenetrable except to time-tested few.
I've learned my lessons,
my eyes can see.
I've got my dues,
won't expect them ever back.
Some accounts are better open,
the closure's often weird.
The dreams are awakened.
A sound sleep is pushed away.
Maybe, I'll be fresh tomorrow (actually today),
only if sleep comes back to me.